Desiderium (Single)

by Gon von Zola

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I wrote this song when I was 16 and re-worked the lyrics 1.5 years ago, as part of my 50 songs in 50 weeks challenge.

Official Music Video: youtu.be/S7TfHEN2nu0

lyrics

Desiderium
(M. Gonjaeff)

Daytime dreaming in my room
Indoor getaway
Must get rid of poisoned thoughts
Turn my phone off, lock the door
Dissolve into the void
and disintegrate
Music sounding in my ears
How I wished that you were here
Alone on my own
My home ain't no home

And I try to quiet my heart but I can't fake it
'Cause I long for you so hard that I can‘t take it
I need your compassion to get back on track
Do whatever it might take to get you back

I am focusing on you
And I compensate
Food for thought and thoughts for food
Gained some weight and lost my cool
Grab a children's book on how to meditate
Inside out and upside down
Vicious circle, round and round
Alone on my own
My home ain't no home

And I try to quiet my heart but I can't fake it
'Cause I long for you so hard that I can‘t take it
I need your compassion to get back on track
Do whatever it might take to get you back

Alone on my own
My home ain't no home

And I try to quiet my heart but I can't fake it
'Cause I long for you so hard that I can‘t take it
Sorry if I caused you any pain. My bad!
Girl, I never had the aim to make you sad

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released January 20, 2023
Written, recorded and produced by Gon von Zola. Additional mixing by Franz-Martin Lippold.

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Gon von Zola London, UK

Edgy indietronica with catchy hooks and relevant lyrics. London-based.

☝️ New arts project POLES www.pole2021.com

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